Let Me Light Up The Sky

"i will go. Lord send me, i will go."many times i cried those words from my heart in the darkest hours of the night.This is my story.October 30,2008. On this night the Lord set in my heart the kindling of a flame that over the next mounths would grow into a fire that spread through my mind, heart, soul and life.A passion. A purpose. A dream. From the moment I began reading that Compassion magazine to where I am today that passion has grown each and every day. My heart has broken and bleed. For every pierced and unreached soul. Every heart that has witnessed war, famine, sickness and despair. Every eye that has seen a family member marched away at the point of a gun. Every child that's body was whipped into a killing machine. Every person that has experianced the work of the devil. My heart goes out to them. On that snowy October evening I found myself gazing into the eyes of the children whos pictures and small bits of their stories had been printed on the page. I began to wander what the depth, the joy and pain of their story held. As the tears began to run down my cheeks, I heard my Sweet Jesus begin to knock on the door of my heart. He whispered "My child are you ready and willing". The months that have followed October 30 have been a truly incredible journey for me. My heart has moved from passive comfort, to a raging fire that is burning up all that I am and desire and refining me to who God is and what He desires for my life. i am not but i know I AM. This journey has not been easy and painless, my heart has been filled with much fear and doubt, but daily I am reminded of my intense smallness in light of Gods greatness. Realized my ability and all that i am and am not lie in the hands of the One who set the stars on fire, the One who sets the rivers in motion, the One who gives the birds wings to soar, the One and Only God who knows my every thought, who has caught every tear and heard every cry. I have nothing to fear.I hear Gods call to me from Uganda. A tiny country, a country with a huge heart. A heart that has been broken, scared and bruised by war. A country that has known much pain. I pray that someday I will find myself looking up to the sun and stars that shine down on that land. May God find me faithful, ready and true. Until that day I will be here on my knees, thanking God for His blessings and asking for His grace. When that day dawns.......i will go.